Poo-astic

hear_me_jig @ 2007-02-07T23:06:00

2007-02-08T04:05:29Z

i've cheating on you too, LJ. i've basically moved my life over to myspace. i don't know why, i actually like this better, but i think it is due to the fact the majority of my friends are over there and they don't have LJ accounts. oh well.

anyways, i just have to state, I love alcohol. i think i'm becoming alcoholic... i dunno though.

hear_me_jig @ 2007-01-06T05:08:00

2007-01-06T10:04:45Z

i hate being a fucking coward. i'm too afraid to say what i really feel.

hear_me_jig @ 2006-12-31T01:39:00

2006-12-31T06:38:41Z

i finally came up with the name of my next album. almost a tracklist as well.. even though the songs are still workingtitles. Potential Lies. that sounds great, eh?

It's a Magical Fun Journey!

2006-11-23T07:01:27Z

well i've been doing some more writing here in the past week. i've re-drafted the Shadow Daemon description, but i'm still working on it. but here is something totally different. it's for that child's mmorpg i've been wanting to create. it doesn't have a name, but i've got about a half a page of magical fun to try and lure people into the project, either financially or intel or coding/modeling, or whatnot. here's the first line, that's all i'm releasing right now.

A happy exciting adventure with rainbows, unicorns, and magical talking monkeys.

how freakin' happy gay is that?!?!
i'm like totally elite and i have total faith in this game so far.

too much coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i'm also working on some rhyming to go along with it.
such as

Thistles and Thustles
Babbages of Cabbages

childish stuff like that makes me giddy and giggly
xD

hear_me_jig @ 2006-11-22T20:59:00

2006-11-23T00:59:44Z

well my dreams are a bunch of killing. literally. a paid killer, hitman, assassin, and the like. sometimes the dream about being a cleaner... those are the real disturbing ones. but anyways, getting to the point. if there was a catalyst in existance that would make me want to act my dreams out, you think i would? i haven't figure that out yet. the catalyst is there. my methods are very thought out. but should i go through with it? and if so, should i get some backing first, lol. i don't know about myself anymore. i feel more and more cold hearted towards most things now then ever, but that catalyst is still there. if i was so cold hearted, the catalyst wouldn't matter at all, but i'm not that cold yet.

hear_me_jig @ 2006-11-19T05:19:00

2006-11-19T09:19:13Z

well another sleepless night here at the apartment. several reasons why. one is being my bed. it's horrid. it hurts my back everytime i lay down to rest. my back is not in the best of conditions either. tonight i had slept lightly for about an hour and i woke up with a horrible demon stuck in my head. i loved it. much more spookier than the last, but a lot more reserve. so i'm forcing myself to write up a description, hopefully to help increase my writing... skill. not much of one i have, but i'd like it to become better. i may post it when i am through with it. there's another reason why i can't sleep... she's always on my mind.

hear_me_jig @ 2006-11-14T18:42:00

2006-11-14T22:42:19Z

I've been sick all day long. My blood pressure has been really low all day long. I can barely function, but I've got to get out this place even if it is for only twenty minutes. I've also been having cold sweats but not yet a fever. I don't know what's wrong.
oh well, I'll live.

hear_me_jig @ 2006-11-12T18:26:00

2006-11-12T22:26:12Z

i'm flabbergasted

hear_me_jig @ 2006-11-03T09:46:00

2006-11-03T13:46:14Z

as regards to my last post. i need to stop more like an adult and more like a kid.

hear_me_jig @ 2006-11-03T01:07:00

2006-11-03T05:07:25Z

i need to have fun again. i mean stupid fun. i'm way too uptight about everything!

hear_me_jig @ 2006-10-22T12:02:00

2006-10-22T16:27:02Z

well well well
lately i've been becoming more inlove with electro-pop, such as Goldfrapp.
anyone know anyone else in the electro-pop arena?
if i could only find a singer, i'd try my hand at electro-pop. that'd be fun
i've also picked up iRO... again
i've also gotten jessica into iRO too; i don't know if she's addicted yet.

in the relationship department on the otherhand... jessica and i are taking a small break. we both needed to figure some stuff out. we still hang out quite a bit, but just a small break. one reason is this: i'm so acustomed to being single...i have no idea how to deal with a relationship. she even still spends the night at least four days a week.

does anyone have a fuax lynx long coat? i'd really like one... even if it is just to borrow. if not, i'll just have to make my own... can't afford a good one that i like. it's for a little photoshoot i want to do. that and i need to find a good photographer to take the pictures as well... my camera would be perfect. maybe i'll become a model... haha, it'll still be fun. i've only told two people of what the shoot is going to be about... because i don't want anyone else to steal my idea... yet.

chris and i are getting closer and closer to a working business plan for Riot.
but i'm afraid of the failure that will come... even if it doesn't fail... i'm still afraid of it. but most of all, i'm afraid of the success. that's weird. i've never been really that successful my entire life and i've been acustomed to failure.

i am now swollowing my pride. i'm getting my GED soon so i can take a few classes down at ETSU. i dont' care about majoring... i just want the knowledge. i'm not sure what classes i'm going to take. but it'll be great.

also trying to get a job at a fiber factory. i necessarily don't like working factory jobs, but it's very good money for the moment so i can afford classes. lately i've doing quite a bit of swollowing of pride. and i think it's a good thing.

hear_me_jig @ 2006-09-24T14:23:00

2006-09-24T18:24:00Z

who would have thunk, drew's got a g/f.
go me, it feels weird though, as me being a bit of commitment shy.
oh well

hear_me_jig @ 2006-09-20T10:28:00

2006-09-20T14:27:56Z

well Weird Al was right on about my roommate and i with his song Trash Day
he's done it again.. he's copied me again
just check his new vid

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xEzGIuY7kw

it's me all up and down xD

hear_me_jig @ 2006-09-19T16:25:00

2006-09-19T20:25:34Z

wow, i actually had a good dream. a good dream that didn't involve me being a hitman or cleaner. i don't know what i was except for rich, wife, kids, butler, maid and the works, and the fact i was a fugitive of the law. pretty exciting i'd say. but damn, i had to wake up for work.

hear_me_jig @ 2006-09-09T12:46:00

2006-09-09T16:46:33Z

well it looks like i'm going to have to sell swazye :(
it's only six years old and such... he WAS appraised at $85k, but now he'll be way way cheaper. he has gotten some arthritis on his right front ankle and the vet doesn't know if he'll be able to keep on doing hunterjumpers past one more year. so my mom and i are going to look for a new horse too.

poor swazye

hear_me_jig @ 2006-09-08T00:24:00

2006-09-08T04:31:01Z

i've made up my mind
i have decided to let my mustache grow for about a year
possibly not even trimming it.
hopefully it'll grow enough i can get a nice handlebar or even a walrus stache going. i'm a bit excited, but with the genes that i have, it'll be VERY hard. my dad having native american genes and my mother having asian genes... makes it really hard for me to grow such a thing. so far i've let my mustache grow for the past four weeks, and it's stopped. my royale i've been growing for the past eight weeks, and it stopped a long time ago.

i got to ride in chris's, my new roommate, new car today; about time. an '89 Mazda RX-7 convertable.... it looks brand new too. it's beautiful.

hear_me_jig @ 2006-09-06T22:56:00

2006-09-07T02:57:37Z

i think i'm becoming worse and worse at the drinking thing
starting to drink more heavily now, and for some reason, it's good... beats everything else going on

hear_me_jig @ 2006-09-05T10:06:00

2006-09-05T14:06:18Z

for some reason, i think the intarwub, or internet, is the most awesome thing in the entire world.

if you don't know, that's Captain Pickard from the starship Enterprise riding in Optimus Prime, leader of the autobots. ;)

hear_me_jig @ 2006-08-29T22:40:00

2006-08-30T02:43:30Z

happy now i am.
i had finally completed two songs. it's been three years or so since i had finished a song. two of my newest songs are now complete.
still need to go through final editing and name them.
hopefully soon, i'll have a new album complete :)

hear_me_jig @ 2006-08-27T18:19:00

2006-08-27T22:35:50Z

well my cocktail party i had friday evening went excellent. a few people didn't show up. the very same people who i've had strong friendships in the past. two of them have a valid excuse not to show up due to children and such. but jon at least could have called. hell he went and got married and didn't invite me or tell me about it. as far as he knows, i don't know yet. next time i talk to him, he's getting a great big fuck you and possibly a punch in the face. i really don't want to see him again. even though he and i were bestest of friends since we were like five. not anymore i guess. he used to be strong in his personal believes about his atheism. then he met his current girl. that very same week he said he was a devout christian. he rarely talks to me now because he knows i'm pretty damn devout in my own atheism. anyways. away from all the theology and such.
the neighbors across the hall are pretty damn cool. kevin is a digital arts major and works for an independent newspaper in the next town over, and his g/f is japanese! that's fucking awesome. Mizuho.. don't know how to spell it, but that's the way it's pronounced.

but my roommate and i actually had a nice turn out for the party. real drinks, not that crappy keg beer or other cheap bottled/canned beers and those shitty liquors that are cheap as hell. but real alcohol, fine wines, a few fine beers, and fine liquors. and a full service mini bar ;)

hear_me_jig @ 2006-08-25T01:28:00

2006-08-25T05:27:55Z

i'm just curious
is it bad that i drink every night?

hear_me_jig @ 2006-08-24T00:05:00

2006-08-24T04:15:09Z

omg!
am i moving up in the resturant world?!

the owner of the resturant i work in right now is wanting to buy a larger building. which means larger kitchen... more than two employees.
she wants me to help her do plate presentations and the menu!
not only that, i'm helping to design the bar, dining room, the comedy stage and all that nutter stuff.
plus being a general manager of a 5-star resturant is a HUGE bonus!

what does this mean?
i can afford to put money away for Riot Entertainment and not have to souly rely on government grants and bank loans.

wow, how can this year get any better. lost my v-card, finally got a nice car, this resturant business, Riot comes together in on paper form, Riot's first project is getting ready to be modelled so that coding can be wrote for it... come on.. what CAN go bad?

and i can't forget about the fully stocked mini-bar!!
what's your poison? ;)

hear_me_jig @ 2006-08-23T07:30:00

2006-08-23T11:30:10Z

i have a new car... w00t!
'89 Saab 9000cd

hear_me_jig @ 2006-08-19T00:49:00

2006-08-19T04:53:17Z

holy shit
i love being a pirate!
not one of those jack sparrow pirates though... i'm not going for glory.
but a pirate like captain crunch.. well ok, captain crunch wasn't a pirate.. he was a phone freaker...
but anyways
starting in a couple of weeks i'm getting a Swedish IP addy. you want to know how COOL that is? IRAA can suck on my fucking 7in cock!!
they can't touch me once i get that IP
american movie industry? hell no, you can't even see me (but who wants to pirate that shit anyways?)

anywho... i'm just excited about that... just have to finish that 2TB file server so i have room to put my existing 280GB

hear_me_jig @ 2006-08-15T02:00:00

2006-08-15T07:15:10Z

just for some random reason
this little titbit of info ran through my head a few minutes ago
"...i think i masturbate too much, maybe i should cut back on the cams and pr0n and such."

maybe i should, then for some reason i turn on some Detroit Grand Pu Bahs - Sandwiches and some The Outhere Brothers - I Wanna Fuck You in the Ass, and here i go again wanting to look at more pr0n and shit. what's up with that?

its about to party time with the nerds...
just who will come to the party this friday?
anyone chris invites won't come because he can't depend on them to even come to visit if he was in the hospital

anyone i invite... well i don't think they drink wine, scotch... or probably even other tonics... it's just beer and jeger and such... eep
maybe all i want is a nice cocktail party, but hell, not enough space for that.
the cocktail party/hawaiian luou will be for my birthday at my parents' house. if i can come up with enough money for all the food and the landscaping for the backyard. i'm still coming up with some ideas for a few original rescipes, still don't know if they'll work yet.

Riot Entertainment is coming along faster than i thought. that means more and more work for me. not only do the others working on this first project, codename: zero-one, are wanting more and more input from me... as in descriptions, mechanics, basically the whole world, visually as well as game engine codes. not only this i'm having to deal with the pressures of finding a good lawyer for us, since i'm not only project manager, but i'm also acting ceo and coo... which is a big PAIN IN THE FUCKING ASS. oh yeah.. we have a budget, a budget so small it's negative right now since i can't afford to pay my rent for another couple of weeks... oh well.

and since i'm acting ceo/coo i'm also trying to think of ways for Riot Ent. to make money before our first project is released. i've came up with one way. digital visuals and sounds for commercials... maybe with possible direction included. they're small, not too large to consume the main project's time, but can make enough money to pay for Riot's bills for the time being.

i'm just really excited about this project and one other project. my MMOSS, yes a massively multiplayer online social simulator. here in the states, it'd bomb and probably bankrupt the company. but i wasn't thinking about the states for this. what is one country/region that would embrace something so brash, so foward and such? none other than Japan and the southeast asian region. they've embraced mobile phones like cybernetics will closer to the future. so imagine something that would bring the populus more virtual? my mmoss. then maybe it would also boost computer sales over there, they're kinda low.

i'm also hoping that zero-one will boost hardware sales here in the states. i remember back when serious sam was first released. no one could freaking play it. literally, the hardware wasn't available yet. and other games around it's time pushed the hardware to the limits and beyond. right now there are only a handful of games that do that, and those games are the usual "i'm a marine, i know how to shoot stuff, but i can't open a door by myself, they need to be automatic. i shoot stuff better good." but of course there is one release coming really soon that should push... a really good title... from the team that brought System Shock and System Shock II back in the early 90's, is BioShock which is coming in april... i can't wait to see if my machine can handle it... it's the best 32-bit system, so if i have to upgrade, i need a new machine which would run me about $3000... just as much as the bicycle i want... and just as much as my annual trip to Denmark.
maybe i'm just too ambitious about the company... i may not be. it's my future, since NPC can not be true within my natural lifetime, i have to divert my attention elsewhere like Riot.

lately i've been becoming more insomnic. one problem about it... i won't drink anything with caffine because it ruins my proformance on my bicycle for those long long rides. too much work has been clogging up my brain lately. i remember back when i was a teenager... everything was so fucking easy... even when i had a job. i'm growing up too quickly. i'm 24 yes, but i'm still a kid. i never really wanted to grow up until i could step out the door and say "i understand." i don't understand yet. maybe all i need is a woman... but for me, that is really hard. i'm not one of those two meter juggarnauts without a brain in their head. i'm short, i'm scrawny, i'm quiet, i'm a fucking nerd, hell my glasses are even taped together, and i don't care about the present fads and shit. woopdee fucking doo that your shirt is that so called "cool;" i don't care. yes i dress nicely, button up shirt and decent slacks, but that doesn't get me chicks.. that just gets me respect from the area's elite... trust me, i've started hanging out with lawyers, doctors, congressional aides, and the shop owners that sells them their $150USD pair of khakis.

so i have no idea what's going on. maybe girls don't like people like me... i look nice, i hang out with people with moneys, yet i'm broker than the walls in government housing.

hold on, i need more scotch.. yes straight

even with all the work surrounding me and with me feeling confident about it, i've been feeling less and less confident about myself. i have no idea why.

today was my first actually long ride since my excursion down to biltmore estates during the beginning of july... my legs hurt, and the ride wasn't really that long.. only 50 miles. i'm way out of shape to what i used to be in a month ago.
i also haven't riden a horse in the past month either. too much damn work, and the fact that i can't afford to call in for a couple of days and sit on my ass reading (no videogames on vacation, haha, my new rule)
some days i would love to be like every other american and sit infront of the boobtube and ROT. but one reason why my roommate and i do not have cable television... it's dumber than shit.

another thing.. i hate the american southern accent. everyone around me speaks it... it's fucking lazy mouth (as my parents call it... but yet my mother is starting to sound like that... it's not just the pronunciation, but the words as well. instead of saying well, they use good... argh, and i thought my grammer and synax were horrible.

haha, i'm not really a drunkard, but i do love the stuff... i find it the most beautiful 18 year old, ever.

and on that note i'll leave you with this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PTU2He2BIc0

they guy in the white sweater is totally pimp!